Avatar Meher Baba Manifestation

a dream vision of Avatar Meher Baba's Manifestation

"Mine will be the Miracle of all miracles. It will be when I break my silence, and it will be the first and last miracle of its kind since Creation.”

Many years ago I asked Baba to show me what would happen in the Manifestation. What I saw was beyond the scope of normal dreams, imagination, and conscious or subconscious thought. Avatar Meher Baba’s life work is gloriously fulfilled “beyond imagination and conception.”

We each interpret personal and collective experience in our own way. At least subjectively, as it applies to myself, I have every reason to believe the future is revealed either in actual fact or in overall effect. This story is shared in the hope it may be helpful and relevant to others in understanding their own experience.

The gap between the capacity of words and the super-conscious reality of the experience was too frustrating and discouraged writing a credible account. Not accurately recording and communicating the most wonderful promise and most serious warning of this message has been a burden of
unfulfilled responsibility. I can only try my best and leave the rest.

In 1979, while trying to understand Baba’s Manifestation, I became sick and tired of my thinking. In an uncharacteristic moment of sincere renunciation and surrender born of wholehearted disgust with
my mind, I thought, “I give up! Show me! Instantly, my mind was stopped and I was given experience of egoless Bliss. After awhile, I fell asleep into a dream much more real than ‘reality’.
In the dream, I am still in the same blissful state, but, now, in the midst of worldwide upheaval, I see an overall view of general chaos and the accelerated deterioration of conditions. All normal aspects of life fail, leaving only hopelessness, helplessness, and desperation.

Natural disasters overwhelm nature and the environment. Widespread conflicts prevail and political systems cannot keep order or serve man’s needs. The world economy bursts like a bubble with financial, industrial, transportation, and communications systems ceasing to function. There is no food. Science, technology, and medicine have no solutions. Social structure collapses on all levels. Religion offers nothing against universal anxiety and desperation, and normal human values are dominated by fear driven panic and selfishness.

Our everyday world and everything we normally rely on for our existence is stripped away and exposed as transient illusion, worthless and useless. God’s support and forgiveness that sustains the world from our mistakes no longer holds back the storm-tide of the full consequences and manifestation of ego and ignorance. A global wave of ego and ignorance rises up, reaches its peak, and breaks into the ultimate expression of man’s selfish indulgence - nuclear cataclysm with all the bombs exploding everywhere. Utter hopelessness and helplessness and universal despair leave absolutely nothing left to cling to, except God.

Only when facing death do people truly surrender and seek God’s help, and only with the imminent end of life on earth is humanity at large ready to receive and accept it. The climax of global catastrophe has set the stage for Baba to reveal Himself universally, directly, and personally to each individual as the Avatar, the One in every heart.

In the greatest miracle ever Baba transforms the destructive energy of all the exploding bombs into Divine light that wipes out ego mind and purifies the world. There is a universal awakening as the all-pervading light penetrates everyone and everything to annihilate our limitations and mental impressions. Everyone, regardless of past life, personality, or spiritual development, is given freely and unconditionally this most glorious and unimaginable gift of Bliss. It is the beginning of a glorious new world and new life.

Nuclear bombs are going off everywhere but, most incredibly, the world is saved from destruction and there is no death, physical damage, or suffering, just the Light. The ego and ignorance of the world, not the world itself, are being destroyed. Liberated from mental bindings, humanity experiences Bliss, direct personal contact with the source of Truth, and the power of unlimited Love.

This Gift from God brings everyone 99% of the way, but we must give the remaining 1% with 100% effort. To hold on to the Bliss and be able to survive and live in this blissful new life, there is one condition. We must follow literally Baba’s simple instructions: “Don’t worry. Be happy. Enjoy the Bliss. Rely only and solely on God for everything.”

Each individual is given a huge push along the spiritual path. The gift of advanced consciousness gives tremendous motivation and inspiration, but the ability to hold on to it is dependent on one’s degree of preparation. If love, remembrance, and longing for God are not already established, the Gift is not appreciated, understood, and accepted. Remaining impressions cause a reversion into normal thought patterns, desires, and behavior. If the command to be happy and not to worry is disobeyed in any way by concern for material things and yielding to normal thoughts and desires, instead of focusing God’s Gift, we lose the Bliss, lose consciousness, and do not survive. Consciousness that still identifies with the limited ego is wiped out along with the universal cleansing of the ego-mind.

God’s hands are outstretched offering each one to be freed from limited ego for the perfect happiness and conscious experience of Divine love on one hand, or, on the other hand, to cling to ego and pass away along with the destruction of the ego into the unconscious oblivion of the Beyond. We are given a clear, absolute, black and white choice that no one is fully prepared for. There is no middle ground or possibility of compromise. Reverting back to normal consciousness is to lose the Bliss, lose consciousness and lose existence itself.

It is necessary to walk a fiery sword edge not to worry and to enjoy the bliss while surrounded by total upheaval and the imminent threat of falling. The desperate situation tempts the mind to renew its hold on consciousness with concern over external conditions. Yielding to the mind, like a short circuit, breaks the connection to God and, simultaneously, one’s connection with this New Life. To survive requires holding on to Baba, and nothing else.

The path is perfectly clear, balancing on the slippery tightrope of Divine consciousness while the limited mind, a loaded gun to the head, can instantly destroy everything. The ultimate drama is played out to the end between bliss or fear, everything and nothing, light and darkness, God or ego, real life and real death, consciousness and unconsciousness. The choice is entirely ours.

The miraculous Gift of Bliss imparts to everyone, regardless of their preparation, the overwhelming inspiration and heroic strength needed to survive, but those who already try to live a life of longing for God surrender to His will and enjoyment of His love have an important advantage of the essential values and self-discipline to hold on. Consciousness that still identifies with ego attachments, in spite of the gift, is annihilated along with the ego. It cannot exist in an egoless world.

In a normal experience of death the soul retains its impressions and consciousness, and moves on to identify with a new body. This situation seems dramatically different. Those who do not hold on and do not survive leave their bodies but there is no physical pain or suffering because impressions and consciousness have been extinguished as well.

Ego and Bliss are mutually exclusive in this new reality. The absence of any possible compromise or choice of a middle ground is shockingly harsh yet perfectly loving and natural. On some level, everyone is brought to God either consciously or unconsciously.

There is a strong sense of apocalyptic consequences for a failure to hold on. It seems that if the Gift is rejected and consciousness is lost, the soul may have to return to the beginning to repeat the evolution of consciousness. Like on the 4th plane, choosing ego over God is misuse and waste of our tremendous new power and rejection of the very purpose of this cycle of creation.

As the bombs explode I can feel and see the Light going right through me and through everything, miraculously erasing ego mind and releasing consciousness to experience God. We are not to look directly at the explosions. Like the biblical story of Sodom and Gomorra, anyone who disobeys and turns to look is instantly gone.

Many people are angry and resentful and blame God that the world has shattered in order to bring us closer to Him. But it is man’s overreaching ignorance, not God, that has brought the world over the brink and it is God’s grace that saves it. By choosing attachment for worldly values and ideas, those who question the purpose and reject God’s dispensation of truth can not survive.

There is no way to describe the incomparable state of universal peace and oneness. I recall the screaming intensity of my feelings more than complete details. In the midst of external crisis, the world is in the birth pangs of a new life of love and joy, heaven on earth. This life is eternal and there is a promise we will live for a very long time to enjoy it. I have greatly enhanced insight and powers. I remember flying over the ocean to India. I can see everyone’s soul shining like the sun, a glowing sphere of pure golden light. Each individual’s body, mind, and personality appear as just a thin layer of dust or a veil over the sun. Intensely beautiful light of the soul illuminates and radiates through the veil from within.

With growing intuition of truth I become more comfortably established in this new life, but there is still the immediate and pressing need to obey and hold on without thought or worry about anything. It all ends for me when I see one of my daughters as an infant asleep on a bed and think, “I hope she will be all right, I hope she makes it through this.” Instantly, my consciousness crashes and I lose the Bliss. I die and fall into the abyss of unconsciousness, an inexpressible loss.

I had failed to obey 100%. Concern for my child’s well being, the most natural, loving, and unselfish act of a parent, is still an expression of the ego, identifying with what is ‘mine’ instead of with God. Worrying and not trusting He would take care of ‘my’ daughter has disobeyed His command. Like Dr. Singh in the New Life, I cannot stay because of a few thoughts of concern for my family.

Explosively, I awoke from the vision in complete shock and terror from my sudden loss of Bliss and fall into oblivion. Such apparent innocence of the circumstances that caused my failure stuns me with a realization of the degree of preparation and understanding necessary to obey and hold on. The most unexpected and inconceivable subtlety and clarity of this lesson is convincing proof to me of its source and validity as coming from Baba and not from my imagination. Fear of losing that blissful state shook me from complacency with a most profound, yet gentle, warning of the constant need to remember and keep focused on God or “curse the chance that is wasted.”

God’s ever-present love makes one feel safely in His ‘pocket’ in spite of our weaknesses. But, how sincerely is Baba’s call for literal obedience followed and how seriously is His constant warning heeded to “hold fast until the very end”? We are like children being guided to maturity, union with God, but the Path is not child’s play.

Whether this dream is prophetic revelation or metaphorical personal insight, it inspires remembrance and love in the present life and is a wake-up call to prepare for the unprecedented awakening that is planned, individually and collectively, for all of creation. There are awesome consequences if we are not prepared.

The reality of this experience has not faded over the years and has become more immediate to me by a growing awareness that Baba is manifesting and we are offered this gift every moment but constantly rejecting it by choosing worry and gross consciousness over happiness and identifying with the bliss of our soul, our ego life over God. It may foretell an actual universal event at some point in time, or reveal a process that is happening all the time, or both, the essential and inescapable relationship between our present conduct and our spiritual destiny.

Errors and missed opportunities are always forgiven and God’s offer is always renewed, but not, perhaps, forever. Baba’s Manifestation is the ultimate decisive conclusion that is renewed only in the cosmic cycles of eternity.

The dilemma of telling this story is the obvious impossibility of communicating, with words, the Gift of Bliss. Without direct experience, the story is easily and superficially misinterpreted as another doomsday prediction of world destruction that conveys negativity instead of optimism and portrays an uncompassionate rather than a loving God. The totally unexpected and miraculous phenomenon of Divine intervention that saves the world from destruction and liberates humanity’s consciousness challenges comprehension. The limited ego-mind and its attachment to the world will be destroyed, not the world itself.

Bliss is so overwhelming and all inclusive, it makes the suffering, confusion, and difficulties of illusion vanish like a mist in the sun. Everyone is given the chance to overcome their weaknesses and mental limitations to find God. In the end, this is the only answer to the endless problems of individual existence and of humanity in general. Selfishness and ignorance create desperate circumstances and extreme consequences, which, in turn, are motivation needed to be ready to accept and benefit from the cure. Baba teaches the infinite experience of Divine consciousness is the opposite of limited ego consciousness They are mutually exclusive without possibility of compromise. What I saw is the application of this fact in a real life context, a tangible warning of the need to prepare for the New Life by living it now, a plea to surrender ignorance for knowledge.

According to Meher Baba among thousands of planets with some form of human life in the Universe this is the only world where spiritual involution and God Realization is possible. This precious and irreplacable world can no longer survive man’s ignorance and ego. Baba’s Manifestation is to save and liberate each of us spiritually from the limitations of self interest, selfishness, and ego, which is what is absolutely necessary to save this planet from destruction. Humanity and the world can no longer survive ignorance and ego, it must be eliminated for humanity and the world to survive. With the vast power of science and technology now available man has the capability of permanently eliminating life on earth but lacks intelligence, love, and understanding to prevent that. It just takes one ego driven, political, or religious mad man to start a cataclysmic nuclear war. To prevent that, limited ego, self interest, and ignorance of man’s divine oneness with God must be completely eliminated. There is no other choice. What seems so harsh about this story with no possible compromise between God or ego is unavoidable to preserve life on Earth.

I am not in a position either to justify or question this, it just happened, and I feel a responsibility to share the experience accurately and honestly. It promises that the extraordinary help of the Gift of love will give us the strength to hold on if we really want a new life of Love and Bliss. Please forgive my inability to convey that, if this story communicates just fear or hopelessness instead of hope. It is a reminder to love and remember Him more and more and still yet more, to hold fast until the very end, to rely only on God, to be happy and not to worry. These are so easy to say, so difficult to practice but, with His help, will lead us to the Goal if we do.

At the Dome of the Rock, 1997

The experience was upsetting and not shared before but escalating conflict between Israel and Palestine over access and control of Jerusulem’s Temple Mount and the increasing alienation of Muslims by terrorism reminds me of this story’s relevance and seeming inevitability..
In 1997 on vacation with my four daughters we were sightseeing  at the Dome of the Rock on the Temple Mount . The big Rock under the dome is where Abraham was  to sacrifice his son, the center of the First and Second Jewish Temples, and where Mohammad ascended to heaven.  Standing in the low cave inside the rock in the spot where Mohammed ascended to heaven I was mentally reciting Meher Baba’s Universal Prayer not moving lips or expressing  anything. In the middle of the prayer a guard violently tackled me and knocked me on the floor.  Red faced and so furious like he wanted to kill me, he pointed at me on the ground and shouted “You are praying!!”  In total shock at this rejection of Baba and His universal message I was being  forcibly led out of the shrine by several guards when I suddenly experienced a most terrifying clear vision of this most holy place as the starting point of a total war of annih ilation between the Muslim world and the western world with Muslims rejecting  Baba and the new world of oneness to be created by His Manifestation.
Before this happened I knew very little of the history or that prayer by non-Muslims is not allowed. I learned  how some Israelis want to destroy the Dome and rebuild the Third Jewish Temple, a certain  trigger for war.
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Avatar Meher Baba Samadhi superstructure proposal


                                           Avatar Meher Baba Samadhi

In his Trust Deed, Meher Baba outlines plans for a "bigger tomb" to be built over the "Tomb" and specifies not less than 100 ft wide area around the Samadhi to be kept perpetually clear and unchanged. While this has always been referred to as "the superstructure", the term is misleading of Baba’s intention to build a larger Samadhi, not just some new structure or protective roof covering over the Samadhi. A more accurate description of this project is "SuperSamadhi".

Trust Deed, pg 31:

"(A) The existing Tomb must always be available exclusively for the Settlor's physical remains to be buried therein as and when the Settlor drops his body.

(B) An area of not less than fifty feet on all the four sides of the Tomb to be similarly available for its expansion and for the burial of the physical bodies after death of some of the Settlor's women disciples.

(C) The existing Tomb proper and the said specified area for its expansion and for the graves which may be or will be there shall always be left completely unaltered and unchanged for all times even when a bigger tomb is built as a super-structure over them i. e. the Tomb proper and the specified area to be included under the super structure as one collective whole."

                                                  SUPER-SAMADHI DESIGN PROPOSAL

 view from New Site path

view from south

site plan

cross section showing Samadhi, 7 levels, up/down ramps, dome

ground floor interior view of Samadhi and lower levels

The Samadhi was designed and built by Baba and is the universally recognized architectural icon of Avatar Meher Baba. It is appropriate the design of a larger Samadhi be based on Baba’s design rather than create something new and unrelated to what Baba has given. The five religious symbols represent the tombs of the respective Avatars and are necessary to identify Baba as being all the Avatars in One and His Tomb as the Tomb of all Avatars. "Mastery in Servitude" is essential to be seen on the larger Samadhi. Baba once told Savak Kotwal that millions of pilgrims would have to take darshan at the railway tracks. This is possible with a larger tomb that looks like the Samadhi and is visible from the tracks.

This super-Samadhi design proposal is an adaptation to a much larger size and function of Baba’s original simple design and use of native materials. For many miles around Meherabad as far as Poona road it will be a clear symbol to focus on Baba, provide a large shrine for devotion and darshan of a very large number of pilgrims, protect Baba’s Samadhi from physical deterioration, and form a managable security perimeter. Externally it is an unpretentious, unambiguous, and direct manifestation of God’s existence, power, love, and presence on earth as Avatar Meher Baba and His work for the Universe. The interior plan and artwork recreates an experience of Creation and the Path to God Realization, provide a comfortable space for large numbers of pilgrims and darshan, and would be recognized and function effectively as a significant place of world pilgrimage.

The minimum size of the super-Samadhi is determined by the 50 foot radius of clear space around the Tomb that Baba required to be preserved and left undisturbed. The interior space is a 100 ft diameter x 160 ft high open atrium around and above the Samadhi. Within this space on the ground level are the Samadhi, the tombs of the woman Mandali, Baba’s cabin, and the existing trees and flowers. Preservation of the peaceful and familiar atmosphere around the Samadhi as it is and free of crowding is accomplished by providing space for the pilgrims and darshan queue on the seven mezzanine levels around the open atrium space.

The seven levels represent evolution and involution and maximize the space available for the darshan queue, arti, and seating areas while minimizing the building’s footprint and impact on the precious land, historic areas, buildings, trees, landscaping, and atmosphere around the Samadhi. The east main doorway is outside of the compound gate and the west doorway covers the graves of Nonny, Shireen, and Sheriar. The original hospital and cage room building is outside the north wall but does not block the north main doorway.

As presented here, the 150’x150’ main floor (22,500 sq.ft.) is the minimum size needed to preserve the 100 ft diameter open space around the Tomb, but if needed to be larger, it could extend over the compound wall. There is a total usable floor area of 125,000 sq. ft. on all levels which could theoretically hold approximately 30,000 pilgrims. Surrounding the atrium is almost one mile of darshan queue for as many as 10,000 pilgrims ascending and descending the seven revolutions in a continuous flow to the Samadhi. Garlands may be hung on the seven balcony railings surrounding the atrium to fill the space around Baba’s Samadhi with an embrace of color and the scent of the fresh flowers. The structure and space is a framework for the union of Baba’s Love and the love of His lovers

The number of levels utilized for the queue could be adjusted depending on the number of pilgrims and there are lifts for handicap and senior access. The ground level has conventional doors or motorized overhead panels and operable screens for controlling access, light, and air circulation. Above the ground level, the first, second, and third mezzanine levels have open balconies with planters for flowers and shade, and operable shutters and screens for light, temperature, and pest control. The next three levels are open only to the interior space and are ventilated by the building’s strong convection and, if necessary, mechanical vents or ac. The seventh level opens to the outside with doors to the large roof terrace surrounding the dome.

Artwork on interior surfaces and the 100 ft. diameter dome would reproduce the Samadhi murals which otherwise would not be seen if it is no longer possible to go inside and also depict the stages of evolution and planes of involution. In addition to the separate up and down ramps for the queue, there are stairways in each corner for access to seating areas for pilgrims not in the queue and several elevators housed within the main columns. Toilets, service areas, air ducts, etc., are also within the 8 main column structures on each level.

The floor and wall structure is relatively economical conventional concrete construction faced with the native basalt stone to match the Samadhi and can be engineered with sufficient reinforcement to survive an earthquake. The dome is a steel frame truss structure with an external membrane of cement plaster or synthetic material to match the Samadhi dome, an interior acoustic membrane with a reproduction of the Samadhi dome mural. There is a 10 ft.wide space inside for maintenance access, ventilation, acoustic and temperature insulation. The cupola reproduces the cupola of the Samadhi but is tinted glass as a skylight for illuminating the interior and with ventilation and access openings. There is an empty circle at the top of the original mural that allows for this skylight.

While it will be needed to accommodate millions of pilgrims in the future, the super-Samadhi would provide a proper, clean, and safe space for Amartithi, protect and secure the Samadhi, and solve many existing problems if built sooner rather than later and not waiting for the millions to come. It is an appropriate medium to present and manifest Meher Baba in a tangible and effective way as the Avatar of the Age and help serve to bring the world to Him.

view from Dhond Road

lake view

view from bottom of Path

view from top of Path

ground level

lower levels with ramps and garlands

upper levels, ramps, and dome

view of Samadhi and ground level from upper levels

aerial view of Meherabad Master Plan
with trees and paths


view from south with q

floor plan

                             1996 DESIGN PROPOSAL FOR MEMORIAL TOWER

                                                                       cross section

Memorial Tower design from Baba and Rano's Ten Circles painting

Ten Circles painting


You are today witnessing a solemn occasion of supreme importance. While the world is feverishly occupied with the vanishing things of the moment, there always are those who gain a true perspective of life, through the grace of the Master. These lucky few are ever willing to make their whole life an ever-renewed and ceaseless dedication to the universal and ageless truth of the imperishable and undivided life divine. The spiritual grandeur of those who set aside all thoughts of the self and make their life an offering to the divine and imperative cause of the Master, is in itself ineffable. But while it surpasses all description, it is something much more than an ornament of crowning glory for those souls themselves. A visible memorial such as a tower, which symbolizes their life of unfailing loyalty and love, can itself become a medium for inspiring the generations to come.
The Memorial Tower of my departed devotees, which is being erected on this spot, will be a reservoir of inspiration and power for posterity. Their memory is not being perpetuated for their sake; they had absolutely no desire for fame or name. But their memory is being perpetuated because it will be an example for those who are living, as well as for those who are to come. A life of sacrifice based on love is never lost. It is not only beautiful and fruitful in itself, but also in the creative inspiration which it leaves behind itself.
The foundation of this Tower is being laid on the tomb of my loved Masaji with the bedding of one of my loved disciples – F. H. Dadachanji, whose selfless service to my cause was wholehearted in its devotion and singular in its attainments. There are also others, such as Buasaheb, Munshiji, Sampath Aiyangar, and so forth, who served my cause with unimpeachable integrity of character before dropping their physical body. For each one of them, a separate flower is placed in the foundation of the Tower; and the names of all of them will be inscribed on the Tower of Glory, which will be erected on this foundation.
The symbolic representation of these departed souls through flowers dispenses with the separative burial or cremation ceremonies, which are prevalent in different societies. The placing of all these flowers in the same foundation is intended to emphasize the truth that, though the bodies of these devotees were different, they were all parts of one eternal and indivisible soul. The Memorial Tower has completely dispensed with the physical bodies of departed souls; for the physical body is only the illusory shadow of the soul. Those devotees whose names are
likely to be inscribed on this Tower, after their demise, will have free choice in respect of disposal of their bodies after their demise. Their bodies may be buried or cremated or disposed of at the Tower of Silence according to the rites of their respective religions or according to any desire expressed by them during their lifetime; and they shall be represented on this Memorial Tower only by their names.
The Tower will be in memory of men belonging to different religions and will, in fact, represent the fundamental unity of all the great world religions. All the great world religions have, in their own way, revealed the same one Truth, which I bring anew. This unity of all religions will be clearly emphasized by placing on the Tower the emblems of all the important religions of the world. The Tower shall thus be a silent proclamation of the unity of all religions. The unshakable peace of the life in eternity and the unfading glory of conscious divinity shall crown the souls which are represented by this Memorial Tower.They are all eternally mine. I bless them all.

approved Memorial Tower design by Ted Judson, under construction

Meher Baba photo overlay with Shroud of Turin

overlay of 1925 (colorized) photo of Avatar Meher Baba and positive image from 1980 National Geographic Magazine article on Shroud of Turin (image on shroud is a photographic negative)

"I am Life Eternal, I was Rama, I was Krishna, I was Jesus, I am now Meher Baba."

All religions of the world proclaim that there is but one God, the Father of all in creation. I am that Father.

 Baba said he had the same face and hands as Jesus.

can you see alright?

In 1979 I had a dream of Baba's darshan. He was sitting in front of me and looked 10 years older than he did in 1969, so incredibly thin and so much more worn out from the continual and accelerating suffering of His work. I said "Baba, it's so wonderful to see you again" Then, with His loving parental concern but with a little joking twinkle He pointed to my left eye and asked, "Can you see alright?" ( my left eye was injured and mostly blind from a childhood accident chopping wood). I answered, "yes Baba" Then, a little more seriously, He asked again, "Are you sure you can see alright?" "yes Baba, no problem, my other eye is fine". Then a third time, even more seriously, more emphatically, and somewhat ominously, but still with His trickster sense of humor, Baba asked again, "Are you SURE you can see alright?" "Yes Baba, Don't worry! I can see fine!" I thought how strange and embarrassing it was telling Baba not to worry. The darshan was over and we both stood up, Baba looking so indescribably weak and frail, something like Mansari at the end. Baba embraced me and with infinite power He physically crushed me down to nothing like a junk car compactor. I was looking in Baba's eyes and was struck by a real bolt of lightening. In the flash, I saw Baba Everywhere, in every being and soul in the universe, in every ant. In each one He was living and sharing their life, in each ant! and with such infinite divine love, as if each individual were the only one in existence, He was guiding and helping them on their path toward the goal. It all happened in an instant and I bounced 4 feet out of bed from the jolt of the lightening, amazed mostly at the infinite humor of Baba's joke, "can you see alright?". Later that year I made my first pilgrimage to India. Mehera and Mani were visiting Meherabad one day and I was talking with them outside the Samadhi when I saw a flash of pure white light of divine love in Mehera's eyes just like the flash of lightning in the darshan dream and the Divine Light in the Manifestation dream that wipes out our impressions and purifies the world. That night I was lying in bed in one of the old cabins, now Ted's office. I was remembering what happened that day and visualizing the light from Mehera's eyes and the light in the dreams. It was completely silent (no truck noise back then) and clear weather when suddenly out of nowhere a bolt of lightening hit just outside the cabin window and lit up the room with a tremendous flash of white light and a huge boom. Two seconds later another strike somewhere in lower Meherabad, and then two seconds after that another strike up on the Hill. BOOM!, BOOM!, BOOM! Then complete silence again and it rained heavily for an hour. It seemed like another dream and I hadn't thought much about it until a few years ago when someone who was also staying in the cabin that night came up to me at Meherabad and asked "Remember the lighting bolt!??"

in remembrance of this dream I wrote this poem:

You asked,
and I said I could see,
then a glimpse of You
turned my sight into blindness.
Having seen You everywhere
I see I cannot see,
Your Sight has blinded my blindness.

a glimpse of Baba's suffering

Driving through Oklahoma in 1975 on the Interstate east of Oklahoma City with my family on a trip from Aspen Colorado to Myrtle Beach, it was very late, perhaps 3 or 4 am, my wife and kids were asleep. I had directions to Baba's accident site and was looking for the exit, but after many miles and passing many exit signs I thought I must have missed it and stopped looking, deciding to go there on our return home from the Center. Just driving, not thinking anymore about it, when suddenly out of nowhere I experienced overwhelming grief, the vast ignorance in myself and the world, and all the suffering it causes. It was a bucket of Baba's Ocean of universal suffering dumped on my head. Blinded with tears and barely able to pull the car over to stop on the side of the road, I sat there sobbing with tears pouring down. When my eyes cleared I looked up and in front of the car there was the exit sign to the accident site I thought I had passed. Baba stopped me there with a silent whack on the head and a little glimpse of His suffering to show the way to the site and its meaning and importance in His work for the Universe.

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